As soon as I stepped into the spaceship, my chest got really tight. Anxiety hit me hard. I didn't know what to expect, but underneath the panic, I also felt something else: relief. For the first time, I didn't have to deal with others or their impossible expectations. Just me, finally free.
, The ship looked nothing like the ones we trained in. This one was massive, way more buttons, more switches and it hummed so loud under my feet, I felt my heart sync up with the violent vibrations.
The moment we took off everything began to shake disrespectfully. The pressure slammed into my chest I could barely breathe. My neck was going to snap off and I genuinely thought "This is how I die" But no. I'm still here unfortunately.
Then suddenly…stillness.
Once we cleared that rocky atmosphere, it was like the whole world shut off. It was quiet in a way I've never felt before. Like we slipped into a different dimension. I looked out my window and watched my big beautiful blue planet shrink and shrink, until it was swallowed by darkness
There I was, floating in deep space, leaving everything I knew.
Physically I'm okay, but emotionally, I'm somewhere in between. Between the life I knew and whatever's waiting for me next. It's uncomfortable. I feel completely ungrounded, but something feels right.
Like the discomfort is a part of the shift.
